I feel like a LOSER

LOSER... yes I feel like one these days, imagine 30 plus pounds gain after giving birth. It has been two years, but I keep on failing myself in getting back into shape or at least to my old body of 120 pounds. In full honesty I slam way up the scale and hit 154 pounds last year and from that day I said to myself this is it, I need to stop this pig from ballooning more. I tried it slowly since 34 pounds was not really gained overnight, numerically this is how it goes....

>>>> 120 lbs - prenatal weight

>>>> 125 lbs - 2 months after delivery

>>>> 140 lbs - 8 months after delivery

>>>> 154 lbs - 20 months after delivery (heaviest)

Three months after deciding to seriously lose weight, I am little down to 148 pounds. My husband is not happy about since he expects a more weight loss and suspecting that I am only fooling him and still pigging out when he is not around. I can't blame him, this is not the woman he falls in love with back then. Even my confidence reversely go down while my weight shoot up high.

Now I am determined to lose this flabs and hit the scale 120 pounds at the end of this year that would be 2.5 pounds per month. I plan to achieve it the healthiest way I can with lots of fruits and veggies, less chips, sweets and sweat it out with a lot of body exercise and regimens.

For this February, I plan to gradually lessen my carbohydrates and have 3 to 4 days a week of one hour fast walking.

I will update you from time to time if I were able to achieve my goal this month and throughout this year. And by the way I welcome some advice on ways and hows in losing weight or you can even join me.

 This is post in my entry to Fat Girl No More First Anniversary Blog Contest an aswer to her What is your weight loss/health and fitness goal for this year and how do you intend to achieve this?